i dunno how to handle my feelings. my mood is down currently. my heart is just so pain. i can feel it aching & it hurts. i couldn't vent it out. i'm so afraid. afraid of losing him. after this incident, i'm so scared. i felt so insecure. anytime, anywhere. he will find another girl. seriously, i dunno how much love does he have for me. is all the guys out there the same? issit why some girls refuse to get into a relationship & marry cos' they are afraid of being hurt? if i could choose, i rather not be a girl. it hurts too much being a girl. too much jerks. aix. black & white is what i see now. where's that cheerful little girl? she's lost.
will we end up going separate ways? i'm really afraid. really. you meant too much to me. i dunno it hurts so much without you. do you feel the same too? or all you need is someone who can acc you?
i hope tml will be my Os & i can be with you after that. there's alot more obstacles ahead of us. all i hope is that we overcome them.
